If someone had told me three years ago that one day I would be writing an article for a company that was founded by myself and a good friend I didn't yet know, I would have thought they were setting me up for a really cruel joke. But here we are.
In the words of David Byrne, "Well? How did I get here?"
My life was completely different three years ago. My mom was battling breast cancer, my dad had just been diagnosed with cancer-of-pretty-much-everything and I was dealing with the emotional tug-of-war of a very long separation from, and subsequent death of, my husband. On top of everything else, I found myself in an extremely unhealthy relationship. (I'm not proud of this, but it's a big part of my story and learning how to forgive myself.)
I was falling apart.
But I wasn't broken.
There were many points in the past three years where I found myself at a fork in the road. It was dark and painfully lonely a lot of the time, but I kept telling myself that the only way out is through. It became my mantra. I kept going. With every right choice I made for myself, every small victory and every day that I didn't feel like I wanted to hide under the covers, the road started to get a little brighter.
After a lot of deep reflection, meditation, forgiveness (of others and of myself) and pushing myself out of the dead-end comfort zone I had been in for years, I eventually found myself on a healthy path. And looking back on those dark days, what I realize now is that despite all of the pain and shame I felt at the time, that was exactly where I was supposed to be. It was impossible to see it at the time, but there was magic in that mess.
Life can test you at every corner. Sometimes without you even realizing it. Sometimes you make bad choices. But wherever you find yourself, every new day brings a chance to make a new choice. A chance to realize your strength. A chance to change the direction of your life. A chance to make good choices and right the wrongs.
Wherever you are right now, take a minute to think about how you got there. Own all of your mistakes and learn from them. Celebrate your successes and keep building on them. Your story is far from over, but appreciate where you are right now. Good or bad.
I'll see you on the sunny road.